TJ is One Month Old!
I can't believe how fast time has flown. At the writing of this post, he is actually 6 weeks old... but like my previous one, it has taken several attempts to finish a post! I try to grab some time while he's napping here and there in addition to trying to nap myself (which rarely happens) and doing the chores.Any who, I am so thankful that our little guy is so good on the road and out and about. The few times we have ventured out into the wide world have been successful! Now we just have to work on him lasting through the whole church service ;)He's already changed so much in the two weeks since this picture has been taken! Little man coos and gurgles and every once in a while we catch a smile with his cute dimples :) He loves "talking" with you! Titus is very alert when he's awake and it's so much fun watching him explore the world. He's not a huge fan of tummy time unless he's on your tummy... but when he does do it he has super strong neck muscles already!The hubs and I are super impressed that he only wakes up once in the night at this point in time (we know that is subject to change... so we're enjoying it while it lasts!) but he rarely sleeps past 7am. He usually goes to bed around 7-7:30pm and wakes up anywhere between 1-3am then wakes up for the day around 6-6:30am. Apparently, this is probably due to the fact that he already weighs in the double digits! At his one month appointment, he weighed in at 10lb 8oz and was 22in long! I wouldn't be surprised if he weighed 12-13lbs at his 2-month appointment. I cried when I put away his newborn clothes :( His 0-3 month clothes fit him perfectly but I wouldn't be surprised if he ended up growing into 3-6 month clothes by the end of next month!I'm still so in shock when I hold him in my arms that this little man has been the child I've dreamt of since I knew I wanted to be a mother some day. I do my best to cherish his newborn scent and enjoy his eyes locking onto mine when we cuddle. I knew a mother's love was a real thing, but there really isn't anything like it that I've ever experienced before. The first several weeks were hard. Very, very, (VERY) hard. I cried a lot. I was an emotional mess most of the time. I thought thoughts I never thought I would think (hehe). However, all of the encouragement that I received from other Mom's about that hard stage passing quickly was true. It did go by fast. In the moment, it felt like the day could never end. When you're up for the umpteenth time in the middle of the night, all you want to do is curl up in a ball and cry (and I did). I would cry as soon as the sun started going down or if I looked in my bedroom (where his bassinet is) because I knew I wasn't going to get any sleep. I would cry and look at Micah and say, "I just want to sleep!". It's times like that I was so thankful for other Mom's who have walked the road before. Who encouraged me and cried with me because they knew exactly what it was like. That first month was a blur of tears and tiredness, but I wouldn't replace it for the world. I learned that the Holy Spirit is my strength and He got me through those very tired days. He continues to bring me through these days as well. They aren't necessarily easier, but I know how to handle them now (better). I have more confidence in my mothering abilities and we have sort of routine (a very flexible one!). I'm starting to say "yes" to help and I have new eyes to see the beauty of the Church body coming together to pray and be the hands and feet of Christ.If you're pregnant or have a newborn, know you are NOT alone. Millions of mothers have walked the same road as you. They've cried the same kind of tears. They've stumbled through the dark to reach their babies. They've wondered, "How will I get through this?!" In those moments of weakness and despair, cry out to God, He will hear you, I promise! It might not seem like it at the time, but the next thing you'll know your baby is one-month-old... then two months old... and you're alive and you survived. He will sustain you. He is Faithful. I'm preaching this to myself as well! There are still nights and days where I wonder if I can do this. Then I am reminded of His Grace and Strength that He has given me in the past and will continue to give me to this day.You got this, Momma!